Fix Your Broken Body

by bsrubin on April 7, 2012

For years I have endured a broken body.  I equivocated that things weren’t so bad, others had similar problems, etc.  Then I fixed things – and life is better.  Don’t ignore a broken body.  Fix it.

I feel like this dog. © steve ball - Fotolia.com

Broken Breathing

Problem: Can’t fucking breathe.

Nisqually Glacier on Mt. Rainier – altitude 9K ft.  I’m taking three breaths per step and dry heaving.  Can’t fucking breath.  My climbing partner Julie is totally fine – she pitches camp early because I am weak and wimpy.  We don’t summit.

Ben: ‘You must have really worked hard to get into great shape.’

Julie: ‘I’ve played a bit of frisbee – but really I’ve been a bit lazy’

Ben: ‘What?  I’ve been kicking my ass for months preparing for this – how are you kicking my ass up here?’

Julie: ‘Doesn’t sound right – maybe there is something wrong with you.  Ever heard of exercise induced asthma?’

For my whole life I’ve dealt with being a terrible cardio athlete and puking with exhaustion on long hikes – especially at altitude.  I equivocated by telling myself I ‘just wasn’t good at cardio’, ‘must be out of shape’, ‘don’t adjust well to altitude’, etc.  All reasonable possibilities.

These were reinforced when an exercise induced asthma test in Boston post-Rainier showed all clear.  I let things lie for another few years and continued gasping for breath.

Fast forward to last December.  I had arrived in Jackson Hole and spent a couple days truly gasping for breath at 6-10K feet.  Damn altitude.  I started going to the gym (Mountain Athlete kicks ass) and puking during every workout.  Damn my deplorable fitness level – which was a wee bit confusing considering I had been training hard for over a year.  My friends arrived and acclimatized better in a day than I had in a month.  A 3600ft ski tour left them tired and satisfied – it left me puking, wheezing, and sick as a dog.  WTF.

Another friend echoed Julie.  ‘This doesn’t sound right – let’s go see a doctor.’

To make a long story short – 4 doctors and a huge exertion of personal willpower later I arrived at a diagnosis of exercise induced asthma.  It’s triggered by altitude, cold, and dry air – ie. wouldn’t show up on a test indoors in Boston.  I’m now on some lovely steroids (Advair) and a rescue inhaler (Ventolin).  On a similar 3400ft ski tour post-medicating I felt amazing – I could have turned around and done the whole thing again without trouble.

Broken Digestion

This is a story about my shit.  Feel free to skip it :)

Problem: Poor digestion pretty-much all the time - diarrhea, bloating, etc.

A Paleo diet fixed many things in my body – but digestion remained terrible.  I resolved to finally fix this after having lived with it 10+ years.  Other people seemed to have no digestion issue whatsoever.  Curious.

Traditional Medicine: GI doc tested me for really nasty stuff like Giardia and Celiac – said I was clear of all that – and was left only with the squishy/bullshit diagnosis of Irritable Bowel Syndrome.  Basically - ‘If patient is still complaining of poor digestion and we don’t know what’s up – diagnose with IBS and tell them to choose a less stressful life.’

Alternative Medicine: Got a stool analysis at Your Future Health.  Had a great discussion with a specialist over there who basically said ‘your gut is full of bad bacteria – you need to wipe it out and get some good bacteria in there.’  Solution: Monolaurin and Citric Seed Extract to kill the bad stuff, a probiotic to boost the good stuff.  I was strongly discouraged from taking antibiotics.  I did that supplement stack for 2 months before giving up with nothing to show  for it.

The actual solution was a complete accident.  I took a course of antibiotics (Z-Pack) to clear a suspected sinus infection.  I was still taking a probiotic daily.  Within a week my digestion problems cleared up completely and unexpectedly.  I took an enormous amount of satisfaction in my single well formed daily shit.  Now when I have digestive problems they are easily diagnosed – I did something dumb like drinking or eating tons of crappy food.

Messed-Up Thyroid

A wellness blood screening revealed a TSH of 11 (normal range .3->3).  This was my brain not-so-subtly screaming at my body to produce more thyroid hormones.  I didn’t have any of the typical symptoms of hypothyroidism (lassitude, weight gain, dry skin) -  but I may have been on my way.  Experimenting with synthetic thyroid hormone replacement therapy (sounds scary – but it’s a pill a day and with no side-effects) has brought my TSH down to 2.9 and I’m headed lower.  This week I had an afternoon of brain-dead lassitude – and realized I hadn’t taken my thyroid meds that morning.  May have been coincidence – but I’m glad my body isn’t red-lining on thyroid function anymore.

Lessons Learned

  • Fix Your Body.  I’ve experience a substantial improvement in my quality of life just fixing my asthma and digestion.  It was worth the difficult path and expense to get to optimal health.
  • You Are Responsible for Your Health.  Doctors and others do their best – but they aren’t in your body and they are crippled by a lack of good tools and a fucked-up medical system.  Numerous doctors told me to stopping complaining about something that was ‘normal.’  Most docs would never test the thyroid level on a young male with no hypothyroidism symptoms.  I listened to these folks for years – and I’m glad as hell I started listening to my body recently.
  • You Need to Be Smart and Dedicated.  It took me a ton of intellectual horsepower, $$$, time, a few brilliant friends, and a quantified-self approach to fix these problems.  I really don’t know what to do for the tons of people out there without all those resources…

I’m happy to report that I don’t know of any major remaining issues in my health.  I am keeping a watch on a few things:

  • I’ve injured both of my shoulders in the past and have occasional pain.
  • My right knee occasionally gives me trouble on long down-hikes.
  • I think I have to get up to pee more often than I should during the night – but I don’t want to drink less water and get dehydrated.
  • A couple maybe-not-optimal blood markers remaining: Vitamin D, Ferritin, Homocystene, ApoB.  I’ve got some supplementation going on and some other stuff planned to watch/work on this stuff.

There are a ton of other things I’m working on – endurance, getting ripped, balance, etc. – but in all these areas I’m striving for enhanced performance rather than fixing a deficit.

I’ll be listening to my body carefully and acting quickly to fix problems in the future.

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Clean Up Your Fucking Mess

by bsrubin on February 11, 2012

I used to be a complete mess. It was reasonably legendary.

  • I remember walking into my college dorm room Sophomore year and realizing that in no place could one see the floor, and that I could rest a book on the pile of clothing 3 feet tall next to my bed.
  • I once had a microwave in my dorm that I used once or twice – then had to throw out due to mold.
  • A pumpkin on-top of my monitor from Halloween eventually rotted right in front of my eyes.
  • A constant refrain from roommates of ‘Ben doesn’t do anything’ is common.
  • My carpet looks dark blue.  It’s light blue.  My dog Lyra has dark fur.  This one is very recent…

Horror stories aside – I found there to be numerous disadvantages to being a mess.

  • Hard to find anything.  ’Where is my wallet?’, ‘Where are last years taxes?’ etc.
  • Embarrassing – friends, women, etc. didn’t appreciate the mess.
  • Did having tons of pet hair, dust, etc. around everywhere impact my sinuses and allergies?  Probably…
  • Most importantly – I believe the general clutter and messiness created a blanket level of stress that was constantly gnawing on me.  I just didn’t like looking at the mess, always felt that I should clean it, but never did.  Yuck.

Do people who are ‘Fucking Awesome‘ have trouble finding their wallet as they throw random items around their room all while trying to avoid the food items that are rotting in various places?  Nope.  Not even close.

Now that is fucking awesome.

Clean.  Minimal.  Everything serving a purpose.  Everything in it’s right place.  Bliss.

I’ve made major progress becoming neat and tidy.  Here’s how.

Own less stuff

There is a whole movement around minimalism.  I love this tag-line:

‘Becoming Minimalist: Living with less becomes sexy again.’

Damn right.

I had way too stuff.  Still do – but it’s getting better.  I have been routinely purging items – clothes I rarely wear, sentimental stuff that isn’t important enough to keep, books I’ve read and won’t re-read.  A great example of minimalism is the Kindle.  Unlimited books -> one sleek device.

How much stuff do I have?  I took a pickup-truck full of stuff out to Wyoming and left about the same amount at my place in Boston.  Much of this stuff is gear – which for me is hard to be minimal on.  I have camping gear that I only use a few times a year – but I need that stuff to enjoy camping when I want to.

I still have work to do here:

  • Save only unread books that I plan to read and highly important/sentimental pieces.
  • Keep replacing clothing with fewer pieces of more versatile and better-made/longer-lasting stuff.  For instance I’ve been considering replacing a ton of t-shirts with two hardy wool t-shirts.
  • I’ve still got a couple caches of stuff at my parents house and in my apartment that I don’t use.  I’ll need to go through an either trash or donate 99% of this stuff.
  • Buy less stuff myself.  Tell people not to buy me stuff unless I’ve specifically asked for it or it’s consumable (food, books, experiences, etc.)

Just thinking about continuing to get rid of stuff makes me grin.  But I won’t take it too far. I DO need 3 pairs of skis, 5-6 technical jackets, etc. – gear is sacred :)

One tactic I’m thinking about is having less physical space to put stuff.  A small apartment with a small closet would force me to be judicious about my stuff.  I also like the idea of a large space but not much stuff in it – minimalist style.

Make a Habit of Putting Things in Their Place Immediately

Obvious – right?  But instead of walking in the house and dumping stuff on the floor – I take the minute or two to put things back where they belong.  Easier to find next time, less cluttered, etc.

To do this everything needs to have a place.  If something doesn’t have a place – I make one for it or use the trash bin.

This also coves food prep.  I clean things or put them in the dishwasher immediately after I use them now.  This has replaced a pile of 15+ dishes that used to accumulate in my room.  But I’m not crazy about this – bacon grease from breakfast can be saved in the pan for frying up veggies at lunch…

Use the Space In-between Things

I’ve been using the Pomodoro technique to great effect to get things done.  This technique dictates 25 minutes of work followed by a mandatory 3-5 minute break.  I have begun to ingrain in my behavior a quick clean during this break.  Could be to tidy up my work area and put things away, or walk to the kitchen and make a quick check and clean.  This works miracles.  Once your space is clean it really only takes a few minutes a day to keep it that way.  This routine helps me keep on top of things.

Schedule Cleaning

My room in Boston was covered in dog hair.  Lyra sheds like crazy and it’s a pain to fix that.

By scheduling a few tasks this has massively improved.  I use this for cleaning tasks that don’t fit in 3-5 minute chunks and get automatically fixed by ‘putting things in their place.’

I use a digital tickler file (Google Tasks checked weekly during my weekly review) for the following cleaning-related events:

  • Brush Lyra every two week
  • Clip her nails once a month
  • etc.
  • I should add more things here – like a bi-monthly car clean and wash, etc.

Use Professional Help

We hired a maid service to come in once every two week and vacuum, clean the kitchen and bathrooms, etc.  This doesn’t replace the need to keep things in their place and do your own dishes – but it saves me a few hours a week of work that I otherwise either I wouldn’t do or would do at the expense of things that only I can accomplish (like personal development, work, or fun).

This Kicks Ass

I feel great about this.  Clean room.   Clean kitchen.  Clean car.  I know where my stuff is.  Wonderful.

I still lapse at times – it’s usually either exhaustion or an unwillingness to clear a mess someone else left.  If I remain physically vital most of the time and surround myself with clean, respectful folk most of the time – I’ll be ok.

Cleaning up your mess is highly recommended :)

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